Whether you believe in magik, the Bible or some other higher power, faith has always been a big part of my life. I have been struggling with my faith for a long time. Today I made a decision. I am walking away from Christianity to devote myself to my witchcraft.
I have not decided which path I will walk. I know I am no longer going to reference the Bible. I am not going to pray as I have my whole life. I am not going to observe the Christian holidays or adhere to the new testament teachers that have left me scarred my entire life.
I am going to pursue a path of nature magik. I am considering devoting myself to studying nature magik. I don’t know if I will go the Wicca route or pagan route, or find a different path. What I do know is I have to cut ties with a religious order that has caused me too much pain.
I do not believe I am turning my back on God. I will still keep him in my heart. I just won’t follow his followers teachings any more. I won’t wear his name as a badge tying me to a cultural practice I don’t feel connected with any longer. I am a witch. I cannot wear Christian as a title any more. It is no longer an accurate adjective to describe myself.
As hard of a decision as this was to arrive, I know now in my heart it is the best one for me at this time. I tried to walk the middle path, claiming to be a Christian Witch. That felt like an oxymoron to me. I now shall revert to my original state of witch. It is the path that I need to walk.
It was a long time getting here. I have a long ways to go to begin the healing process of shutting that religious order out of my life. I don’t want to abandon my faith, but I don’t want to do anything that can get me mistaken for a Christian. I have always been a witch.