I often tell people who ask about my spiritual practice today that I am a chaos witch. I don’t usually go into details what that means to me but I will say that I have dabbled in different practices over the years.
The earliest forms of witchcraft I remember trying were just simple spells I read about in books I found at the library. Encantations and simple prayers to various Pagan gods, the fey or other spirital beings. By the time I was seven years old I was already learning to read cards, use runes and even crafted my own ouja board. By the time I was 12 I had shifted to necromancy. I used to go into graveyards late at night by myself and make attempts to talk to the spirits hanging out there. Sometimes I would get a few faint whispers, sometimes I would get flashes or images of foggy beings but nobody ever really spoke to me during those sessions.
I took a short break from witchcraft during my teen years when I was pursuing a Christian religious practice. By the time I was in my 30s I had converted to Catholicsm where I could be far more spiritual than as a Baptists while still claiming to be Christian. A few years ago I decided to give up pretending to be Christian altogether and settle on becoming fully Pagan.
Since that time I have learnt moon magic, mirrir magic, tarot, candle magic, spells of will and intetion, and yes I have even done some encantations and rituals designed to tame demons. I maintain a somewhat working relationship with several Pagan deities, but my closest relationship in that real is with the Celtic Goddess, Brigid, whom I idtentify as my Mother Goddess. I did a very speciific ritual inviting guidance from any spiritual forces willing to answer my call. She was the first to come to me and agree to be my guide. Since then I have had a rocky relationship with her but we maintain a strong mother-daughter situation. Yes, we fight from time to time like real life mothers and their daughters do but we always make up.
There are some types of witchcraft I am more inclinded to try than others, but I think it is safe to say I don’t rely entirely on any single practice. I don’t even always have a defined goal when I attempt to use the supernaturl forces of the universe. Sometimes, I’m just trying to see what happens. One thing I will say is no matter what you believe, never let anyone tell you that you can’t do what you want. Even if you end up making mistakes, tell people they are your mistakes to make and that you will learn from them. Your practice, your faith, your craft is yours. Nobody has any right to interfere with that.
Stephanie Bri 