Mortal Kombat X, Xbox Tablet, and a new Smart Watch?

There are a lot of topics to get to this week and instead of giving each one their own post I wanted to do a quick rundown on the more prominent stories I have been following.

Mortal Kombat X

They recently announced Jason Voorhees will be a playable character in the new Mortal Kombat game coming to next-gen home video game consoles. The announcement was sort of a surprise but very welcome as they already introduced Freddy Kruger in the previous entry of the series. There is no current word if Freddy will even be featured in this current game so hopes of a Freddy vs. Jason rematch will have to be put on hold until there is a confirmation. Even still watching Jason “face off” against Scorpion will be more than enough for now.

Super Mario 64 Wii U Virtual Console

Wii U is apparently a sinking ship, the big release of the month of April is a re-release of a 20 year old console game that launched their also troubled Nintendo 64 console. Don’t get me wrong I love Super Mario 64 and considering I already own it on Wii the price to upgrade was a reasonable $2, I still find it somewhat disturbing that this would be their flagship release for the week. I was almost excited for AVGN Adventures finally releasing on Wii U, but they took so long porting it over I already downloaded, and completed, the Steam version on my PC.


While on the subject of Wii U might as well talk briefly about Splatoon, the squad based paintball-inspired shooter game launching soon. Some have complained the game will not feature voice chat but honestly the game looks like it will be super fun with out the annoying chatter so I say fine by me. Count me in as a day one purchase.

Nintendo NX

Very little is known yet there is already much speculation on the announcement of a “new platform” coming sometime in the next year or two. The official announcement was NX would be a new game platform that would sport a brand new method of play apparently keeping with the DS, Wii and Wii U motife of reinventing the wheel every generation. Little is known so for now I will reserve judgment, the Wii U was a disappointment at first but it managed to win me over so there is a chance NX will be something I follow closely.

PS4 dominance

It is official according to the latest sales numbers PS4 is not only “winning” the word-wide console war for next-gen gamers, It is also a success in Japan, the county where console gaming has long since been declared to be dead. I can’t say I am surprised, I picked up my PS4 right after it hit it’s 1 year birthday and so far it has not been a disappointment.

Where is the Xbox Tablet?

While I am not a major fan of the Xbox game console, I am curious why Microsoft hasn’t attempted to make a gaming tablet sporting the Xbox brand. I understand they are supposedly integrating Xbox as a feature set into Windows 10, somehow, I just think they need to follow Apple and spin off the Xbox brand as it’s own operating system for gaming tablets. Sort of like how Apple has Mac for their PC’s and iOS for their “smart devices” Microsoft should keep Windows for their PC’s, and use Xbox for everything else. While they are at it, they could make an Xbox Watch.

American Society of Cinematographers

I decided to subscribe to the ASC monthly magazine as well as sign up for their website. My intention is to learn more about the art of film making from experts in the field to prepare myself for attending a film school in the near future. I currently need to meet a few prerequisite requirements in order to get into the university of my choosing so I will be taking this time to begin preparations for that eventual move.

I already completed a course in cinematography at my previous university so I have a foundation to start from. I am also currently working part-time as a video editor for a local news television station. I will focus on developing my skills while at work in addition to creating projects on the side. Because I want to become a proper professional I will be studying film techniques from different sources and perspectives. Previously I was merely relying on reading the book from my film class in school and watching behind the scenes documentaries on various DVD’s in my own film collection. I have decided to expand that to include a monthly subscription to the American Society of Cinematographers magazine in hopes that I can learn from the professionals in the industry.

I also looked into the requirements of joining one of the unions or guilds for film editors. I do not currently meet the requirements but I am working towards that so I at least know I am on the right path.

I am also in the process of producing a couple side projects for my own development. I have one more music video that I am working on and a short documentary film that I am still preparing to research for.

Another Cry for Dawn article because nobody cares

More specifically reflections on Faith, Wicca, stars, and some other stuff I have been holding back.


I recently started watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer from the beginning on Netflix. This is my first attempt to watch the entire show from start to finish, I plan on alternating between Buffy and Angel starting in Season 4 as that is how the shows aired on TV so I am hopping to get the full effect. I am okay with there being some continuity errors, I watch Doctor Who after all continuity is a four letter word for that show. Still even in just the middle of season 3, actually I am at the end there is just the 2 part finale to go, I will get to that tomorrow.

I have some gripes, thoughts and connections to other media I wanted to go over. I won’t go into the details because its late I need to get to sleep so I can work in the morning but here are some quick thoughts.

Obviously I like the show, especially the mythology behind it. I am not overly fond of Willow turning into a Witch and treating Wicca like it is some newly discovered X-men super power thing but I still like the character and the dynamic she adds to the show. A lot of people watched the show for Buffy, the cute slim blond who got what she deserved in I Know What You Did Last Summer. As for me, just like with How I Met Your Mother and the American Pie movies, I was attracted to Alyson Hannigan from the start. Yes I also thought Sarah Michelle Geller was hot too who didn’t but Willow was the kind of cute shy, smart nerdy type I was always into. Seeing her character evolve as she has was kind of painful for me at first, being a Christian I was opposed to her becoming a witch. Then I realized in the context of the show it wasn’t so bad.Then I realized if I was going to have a problem with that I might as well stop watching the show entirely.


This leads me to Dungeons and Dragons as usual. My first and favorite D&D campaign involved a haunted house in the haunted woods set behind a graveyard filled with all sort of undead creatures and the villain was a vampire sorcerer who was trying to raise some evil priest from hell. I didn’t get to finish the campaign because all my players moved away or I moved on or time went by, but I always liked how Buffy sort of reminded me of that campaign and so I began devising a new campaign set in the Buffy universe. Or at least loosely based on it. I would use a character similar to Dawn inplace of the Watcher or rather instead of Angel’s useless being. Speaking of Angel, no let me get to Faith first.


As much as I am torn over the direction Willow’s character is moving I am totally bummed what they are doing to Faith, I actually liked her better than the Jamaican slayer she replaced, until they turned her evil. I still think there is a chance they might redeem her but no need to get into decades old arguments of what went wrong there but I do envision in my campaign a character based on her that doesn’t exactly join forces with the bad guys but is similar in scope and dynamic. 


Angel, so far I HATE him and I wish they would have left him in hell. I can not believe that character got his own show. The chemistry between Buffy and Angel is terrible, at least with Willow and the werewolf there is chemistry even with Xander there was a believable chemistry but Angel is like Buffy’s boy toy but he is more a prop than a character. Nothing like Booth and Bones on that other show the Angel dude plays in those two have chemistry even if it was forced on the audience against their wishes.

In order to understand my obsession with the Dawn character you have to keep in mind when I was a teenager, I was heavily into the occult so her character was very much appealing to me. I outgrew most of that after turning my life over to the Lord and finding salvation in the one true God of the universe. I know some who would condemn a man for watching this stuff but I can think of several good reasons why it is perfectly acceptable. But Instead I just say who cares its a story it doesn’t have to be taken seriously.


Alright so my obsession with Dawn goes back to Cry For Dawn being what I always pictured for A Nightmare on Elm Street comic book, even though they actually did make one of those I still think the premise for Cry for Dawn would have worked much better. Also you can thank the folks at Wizard magazine the comic book magazine I read every month along side my Electronic Gaming Monthly, they ran a feature on the Dawn character once right when I was in the middle of expanding beyond just X-Men comics so I sort of developed a thing for her twisted reality right off, X-Men are great and all but the dark stories of the Dawn character were much more my liking.


I don’t always just like dark and scary stuff and Dawn is so much more than just a demon witch (they call her a godess in the books but I figure she is probably a demon witch instead) I never cared much for the whole witches can be good bit to me they are always evil but the Dawn books found a way to show the turmoil of a lost soul, something Christians often forget that these people are damned to Hell for eternity and they are suffering inside. Alright so it’s not exactly preaching but you get the point right? If you want to understand the suffering a lost person is going through you need to study their works, and I find the Dawn stories a good place to look, Buffy is also a good place to so if you like Buffy check out Cry for Dawn, then go from there.if you hate Buffy still check out Dawn she is a fascinating subject in literature, even if she mainly appears as a twisted demonbitch in a comic book nobody read.


None of that psycho bullshit about redheads either, I actually don’t have a preference so that has nothing to do with my obsession but the truth is it is rooted in a deeper torment that unfortunately I can not describe to those who have not suffered it themselves.

E3 has come and gone.

Last year all the E3 rage was on how awesome PS4 was going to be, coupled with all the Xbox One blunders it was kind of a slow show. Nintendo was in their own little world begging people to buy their Wii U but then sending mixed messages about their 3DS platform.



This year was so much better. PS4 still had a good show, Microsoft made amends for their early mistakes by announcing the game Halo fans had been waiting for since 360 came along, a full HD remake of the first two Halo games in a big Halo bundle. I didn’t spend much time on the Microsoft stuff because Xbox is a hard sell for a guy like me, I don’t care for shooters much and that seems to be most of what they offer and I am not a PC gamer so PC style games do not appeal to me much either. Fable is the only property they own that I am still remotely interested in and they are hell bent on destroying that so why bother. I liked, not loved but liked Killer Instinct on the SNES, it was a joint venture between Nintendo, Rare, and Midway Games, three companies who all tended to work really well together. The game was somewhat unique in that it was Nintendo’s take on the Mortal Kombat/Street Fighter craze of the day, it was not as good gameplay wise as Sega’s fighting games, but it was a fun game to add to the collection. Since then Tekken, Virtua Fighter, Soul Calibur, Street Fighter, and yes even still kicking is the good old Mortal Kombat series, all doing ten times better at what Killer Instinct was only barely good at to begin with. The shooters don’t impress me much and I hate sports games so sorry MS you haven’t won me over just yet.



Sony on the other hand is the ones sending mixed signals this year, they show a game everyone wants and should buy their system to get, then reveal it will be multiplatform across all their systems, Vita, PS4 and PS3, why bother upgrading now when all the best games are still on PS3 anyways and they don’t look that much better as of yet on the PS4 to justify the price. I am all for latest and greatest and yes I was sold on PS4 by the tech and potential alone, but I am still holding out for some games before I shell out my money. I want one, I never stopped wanting one and that is a good place for Sony to have me at right now, interested but looking at my finances makes me have to pick one at a time so this year I chose the REAL winner of E3…




Nintendo blew me away this year, I was not just impressed I was anxious to get my hands on some of the games they showed off so much I went out and picked up a Wii U right then and there. No need to wait for the price drop that isn’t likely to happen.

Up till now all I was interested in getting a Wii U for was Mario and Luigi U, Mario 3D World, Donkey Kong Country, and when it releases Hyrule Warriors, no where near enough to spend the money on a brand new game console, even if it is backwards compatible with a machine I had a love hate relationship with.


Here are the games that put me over the top.


Super Smash Bros. for Wii U

I loved Melee on the Game Cube, it was the best game in the series, one of the best games on the Game Cube and it had so much fanservice that the replay value of collecting those trophies was enough to keep it in the machine days on end. Brawl was a mess, it was just more of the same mixed with some odd choices, for me it was weekend rental and most and a throw away from there. I am not overly fond of the smash formula but there are things in the series that I do get excited for, especially the nostalgia stuff. With Brawl they broadened the appeal by including Sonic, well as a long time Sega fan I have had my fill of Sonic in recent years so I was kind of burned out on the character by brawl and wasn’t re interested until Sonic 4 came along. So seeing him in Brawl was not a big selling point for me and the online play was sloppy.


Wii U Smash is different, they added a few things that I just can’t refuse. First Mii characters are not playable in Smash, I was kind of tired with the Mii’s after about a year or so into Wii but they found a way to make them exciting again, think about it if you want a character in Smash Bros. but Nintendo doesn’t have the time, desire, interest, or money to make it happen, no worries make a Mii and you now have that fighter in the game. Sure Mii’s have limitations but they are fun and they add to the tone of the game which is all mixing everything from Nintendo’s past into one exciting game. Mii’s might still be relatively new but they are a part of Nintendo now like it or not so they do belong in the game.

THE REAL selling point for me was


Pac-Man as a playable character. Not only is is super exciting to be able to pit Pac-Man, Donkey Kong, and Mario all against each other in the same battle, with good old trusty Sonic or even Mega Man if you want, but it is also super cool they are including Pac-Man levels in the game. Pac-Man is one of my top video games of all time, it is usually the first game I get when I buy a new device, it was the first game I ever played as a kid and I put a lot of quarters into those machines over the years. Seeing Pac-Man, Donkey Kong, and “jumpman”, all pioneers in the video game universe, all in the same game is too much for a guy like me I went from being interested in the game to being hyped at that exact moment.




You will need to Google some videos of this to see how fucking amazing it looks. Normally I refrain from swearing in my blog posts because I try to remain somewhat professional and at least moderately civil but this game looks fucking amazing. It is a tactical squad based combat shooter like oh so many others, but with the Nintendo magic formula applied to it. Instead of space marines or generic US soldiers, this game is a cross between paintball and everything fun about Nintendo. The players are squid-human hybrid things that run around squiring paint on everything. the game looks colorful, bright, fun, and intense game play all mixed into one big bag of Nintendo awesome. Once a generation Nintendo makes a game that stands out and reminds people why they are still the number one game developer in the world, the ONLY software company whose games alone can sell a system with little to now third party support. Sure Mario and Donkey Kong games are always fun but its nice to have something fresh and exciting for a change too. This game looks like it will be tons of fun and I can’t wait. I am not super fond of shooters but I do play them, especially the ones that stand out, this one stands out like a golden ticket in a batch of bad chocolate.


Captain Toad Treasure Hunter



I love Mario games but Nintendo tends to over do it with their plumber mascot. Toad is like Luigi one of the side characters that everyone likes but never gets his own game. Seeing Toad star not only in his own game but a completely fresh take on the Mario formula is awesome. I always liked Toad especially in the Mario Party games. I mean who doesn’t? He was my favorite character to play as in Super Mario Bros. 2 even. What I like about it is Toad is an actual Mushroom person so seeing him doing something in the Mushroom Kingdom is actually exciting, Mario is fun and all but he is human he looks out of place in the Mushroom Kingdom but Toad he is from there he fits right in. The game play looks amazing and the graphics look top notch as usual for Nintendo. This is the game I bought my Wii U for today, it doesn’t come out till latter in the year and most of the games I want are next year releases but I wanted to get a machine now to play Super Mario 3D World, the game that introduces the Captain Toad levels, before I play the full game this holiday season. Yoshi’ has always had his own games Princess Toadstool has had her own games, but I am sure this is Toad’s first and it looks fun, so much fun.


Mario Party 10 is it?


Damn I lost count but are they really up to TEN Mario Party games? Anyways this looks like more of the same for the most part but it added one special thing that really got me interested, playing as Bowser, oh yeah that looks like a whole lot of fun.Not much to say it’s Mario Party one of those games you play but you don’t get too excited for.


Hyrule Warriors/Zelda U


Both of these games look amazing and truth be told Zelda is always a jumping in point for me, as with most Nintendo fans and gamers all across the board, but his last couple of games had me losing interest in the series. I never played Skyward Sword and I didn’t care too much for Twilight Princess and yes I was one who hated Wind Waker, loved the art stile but not so much the Pirate stuff that felt out of place in a Zelda game. Anyways these two games look to be the type of Zelda a non-Zelda Zelda fan has been crazing. As Someone who liked Zelda 2 on NES I am always open for change in the Zelda universe as long as that change is not too radical like Wind Waker or turning into a damn dog. Hyrule Warriors is a hack and slash action game that pits Link and friends in an epic battle against thousands of enemies at one time. These games are rare and and especially rare on a Nintendo console, so this is a welcome change.

Little is known about the main Zelda except that it is “open world” and the puzzle solving will be less traditional but the trailer made it look super amazing and the interview revealed that the game will play more like a modern open ended game than a sandbox Zelda game of years past. It sounds promising and I hope they can pull it off.


There are also new Yoshi, Kirby, Wii Sports, and a bunch of other games coming but those are the ones that had me most interested. There are three very interesting games from the Mario creator Shigeru Miyomoto who is Nintendo’s top game designer, one of which is an episodic Star Fox game that might be cool. There is also a game called Art Academy that looks really interesting.



The final game to mention is something called Mario Maker which is basically a level editors for Super Mario Bros. games that lets you take Mario Bros. blocks, enemies, power ups, pipes, vines, etc and place them in your own design and share with friends. I am not too excited for this one but it might be kind of fun. For now give me Zelda, Hyrule Warriors, Toad, and Splatoon, and I will be fine. I am also somewhat interested in the Amiibo figurines picture above but I don’t know enough about them to really comment other than the collector in me is dying to get my hands on some of those guys.

Delusional but not lost

Global Warming, a hot topic issue that most people either choose to ignore, avoid, or devote their lives to. There doesn’t seem to be much of a middle ground either it’s either you accept it as a real threat or you pretend it’s not even real. Is there no room to meet in the middle anymore? I am not going to get into politics specifically but I wanted to start with that. It seems like in today’s world everything is at an extreme end of whatever spectrum it is, nobody ever meets in the middle, nobody ever compromises, and it seems like people are afraid to admit that they are indecisive so they take a stand even if they are unsure of what they are doing. Believe me I spent a lot of time like this, as do most Americans today. I have had to spend some time recently discovering things that I had previously felt I had worked out.


Let’s put global warming or global climate change aside and take that out of the equation. If you stop pushing the agenda for a second, either agenda, you discover that both sides make good, compelling arguments, but they do so in the wrong way. Instead of trying to counter each others argument they should find the common ground and work from there, that traditionally how things used to work. Let me give some examples. Most people, myself included, have no issue with recycling, we do have an issue of being told that we must recycle everything or else we are evil and bad. However there is not a strong argument to make against recycling people still get defensive when they are told to do something. How about instead of pushing the global warming agenda or the anti global warming agenda if there is one, and instead find where people do agree. We don’t all agree about the effects of waste, but we do all agree that nobody likes going to the landfill and we would all like to reduce our garbage bills somehow. The best way to handle it then is to focus on the benefits to the individual not to society as a whole.


Sticking with recycling for a second, doesn’t it make more sense then to work on a single family by showing them how much they could save on their trash bill if they recycled instead of throwing everything away? Most people already know if you save pop and beer cans they can cash those in, but what about paper, cardboard, glass bottles, or even old electronic devices. Sure we have places that will recycle them for you, some that are free but even those who will charge you for the “service.” Now that is the problem with the “green movement” as a whole, you get it in people’s head they need to do something and then they take advantage of other people. We all want to make the world a better place but I think we need to do it by focusing on our local community first and if everyone did the the whole world would just benefit naturally.

I am not sure how to go about getting more recycling centers around that pay people for their stuff but I do know that in a capitalist society that approach would work so much better than trying to guilt people into doing things.Most of us can barely make ends meet as it is, we are pinching pennies, clipping coupons, and scouring yard sales just to stay alive, we have no wiggle room in our budgets to pay for something like Recycling, even if we deep down want to make a difference. Some of us do our best by crushing cans and taking them to the salvage yard but even that is not always worth the effort for some people. So where does that leave us, personally I can’t afford to add recycling pick up to my garbage bill so all that stuff they would want me to recycle just goes into the regular garbage bin anyways. Maybe if the land fills were more organized and could sift through the garbage they receive to separate out the recyclable goods from the trash but even that sounds like a real effort.


Maybe instead of cities charging to pick up recycling goods, maybe they could offer you a discount on your normal trash pick up instead? Like if you actually use the recycling bin as instructed and you donate enough stuff they can deduct that from your trash bill, maybe not enough to cancel each other out but probably enough to get more people taking up the cause, just stealthily. You see some people just don’t care anyways so no amount of preaching is going to get them to budge. These same people will resist further government regulations that say force them to recycle, so why not meet them in the middle? I think this approach works best because it has the least amount of resistance, sure those who do no recycle might argue they shouldn’t have to pay for trash pick up either if those who do recycle get their bills reduced, but that will only make it harder for them to hold out, as more of their neighbors take up the service it puts pressure on them to get with the program and if it reduces your trash bill then it further makes them look silly for holding out because then they become the ones fighting for a cause, only instead of it being a lost cause as people think global warming is, it becomes a pointless cause they will gladly abandon once they figure out how much being stubborn is costing them.


There is a company up on Idaho starting to develop a new solar road system that if put into place correctly will solve our energy crisis. Although the term energy crisis is another extreme end of the spectrum that people also feel hopeless about when they give it any thought. We all know how little good adding solar panels to your house is. The energy you generate is not enough to offset the start up cost so people just refuse to even make a token effort. I would think that if people made a minimal effort like say adding just solar panels to the garage or tool shed it would help but again you have to do more to motivate people. This is where I believe the solar roadways will actually work so much better. I won’t go into major details but I will post a link to their website for anyone who wants to read more.



The general idea is you have a road that creates power, keeps itself clean during snow storms (which would be nice by the way), and increases our internet coverage all by being built into this new high tech road system. Sure the vision they have is decades away, if the usual hurdles get in the way. But I think we could see it much sooner if we really think about the small time, short term immediate benefits to the individual rather than focus on the long term benefits to society as a whole. If a person was already considering say a hybrid or electric car but was turned off by the added expense to the power bill here is an alternative charging method that might actually be more desirable. Instead of paving your drive way with concrete you install a solar road system, it combines solar technology with some really cool features like being able to charge your electric car, reducing your power bill, and never having to shovel snow again, all benefits that have more than monetary value.


Let’s go back to solar panels on the house, the reason why these do not “pay” for themselves is because literally the only benefit you get from installing them is a little free power from the sun, big deal right? But with the solar road system you get added value like take not having to shovel the snow ever again. Think about how much time, effort, personal energy and money it takes to do that task alone. If they really want this idea to take off I think forget the global warming crowd, forget the energy crisis angle just sell it as a snow removal option that also happens to reduce your power bill in the process and suddenly you have something that might not pay for itself monetarily but adds personal value by giving people more time with their families, something we can all appreciate more than just saving money. Sure they will eventually pay for them selves too but they will do so faster because now you are adding value to someone’s life which is more valuable than just money. This is the angle the left often ignores and the right forgets about, people value their time more than their money it is the reason why we pay $3 bucks for a cup of coffee when for $6 bucks we can have a weeks worth of coffee at home. Time is important to people and if you focus on the time value angle instead of the helping society angle more people might be willing to respond in a positive light rather than being so resistant to change.

Status Update, life and stuff.

I took the site down, I am rebuilding it. The truth is I was trying a new content management software and decided I hated it. I like to be in more control of the look and feel of the websites I put my name on. So I am rebuilding the site using the tools I know how to make it the way I want. Going Broke Media is not a site for the public it is a site, plain and simple, for me to promote myself period. I intend to use it to showcase all the creative works I can because I want to use it to promote my career.

I can’t explain it to people who think money is the only motivator but I don’t want to work a typical job and live a typical life. I am willing to get a realistic job that is suitable for my talents and earn a proper living which is why I am in school, but I am a visionary, an artist, a story teller at heart and I need a venue to share my works. That is what Going Broke Media is. I chose the name because I am flat broke and it sounds better than cliche starting artist or something lame. Also it has a nice ring to it.

No it is not a joke it is the real name of my company, a company that I actually am in the process of building from the ground up. What I want to do is not something I can explain to people I don’t have a career path in mind. I want a degree that gives me the flexibility to move where I want and get into any normal office or business at the entry level, which is why I settled on Business.

My typical go to work job needs to be something where I can have job functions that use my talents of organizing data and problem solving and business is that. I am pretty talented at keep track of information and deciphering what it means, writing reports, and processing that data into tangible arguments and presentations. Consider that my day job, the Bruce Wayne of what my life will be. The other side is the creative person who strives to do whatever I want as long and as much as I can.

Some things not many people know about me but I do like to paint. I have canvases, paints, and an easel all for the purpose of creative paintings. No I don’t want to be a painter it isn’t even a hobby it’s just something to do when I feel like it. Something most people do know is I like to make music, and I also like to create and edit videos. Now I don’t exactly want to make a career in video production, I researched what it takes and it’s not for me.

However in today’s world with our modern technology it is possible to create audio/visual works with little money. As someone who has studied theater, films, cinematography, and mass communication in general, I am fairly confident that I can create videos that are compelling and entertaining. I might not become a big budget film maker, which again that is not my goal, but I will continue to make videos as much as I can. I do it because it’s what I want to do.

I also write short stories for the same reason, I have tried many times to write a novel and realized that was not for me, what I should do is write a story that interests me and instead of trying to get it published in the traditional way to make money, I will just share my works with the world via my new website. The point is I just want to share my works with people because it gives me pleasure doing so, even if they do not fully understand my works.

Not everyone gets A Midnight to Forget, hell it was a sloppy effort for an online film class that I cut together using random footage I had saved up over the years. But see that was the point, when I began shooting random footage over the years it was with the intention to compile it all together at a later date and weave it into a visual story, something I accomplished even if it does need explaining for people to “get it” and those who don’t get it that is fine it isn’t meant to be gotten by everyone. The same is true for my music, I create music with one purpose, for me to listen to when I am in the mood, others are free to enjoy my music if they choose to but the music I create is for me.

So what changed, when did I stop trying to commercialize my works? I didn’t are you not paying attention that is what the website is about, by compiling all my creative works together I am show casing to the world all that I do, giving them a place to see what I have done, what I am working on currently, and what I intend to do down the road.

This opens up the door for me to sell my ideas to those who might be interested or maybe someone approaches me and likes what they see and asks for my help with something. I can afford to be selective because my goal is not to be a famous director or music producer, my goal is simply to do what I enjoy doing and live the life I set out to live. Some think of it as lonely but that is their problem, their weakness not mine.

What about The Spiders Lair? What is that all about you might ask? Well let me put it simply Going Broke Media is my professional side, it showcases all the creative works that I have done or will ever do. The Spiders Lair is a personal website that show cases all the things that inspire me in this world, those things that interest me the most. It is also a place for me to organize my thoughts. Both web sites are currently under construction but since they are basically pretty simple ventures there is not much to do I expect them to be completed shortly.

Some websites I attempted to do before were just overwhelming, these latest two ventures are actually rather simple, they represent me, my professional, creative, artistic side, and my personal side. I do not currently have a time frame on when either site will relaunch, I would hope to get them going this next week or so but realistically it might be this summer before I get them up and running due to school, work, and life in general. Stay Cool.

The Plan: starting a media brand

Alright first off, school was always just a stepping stone to bigger things for me, let’s get that out of the way. I never had any intention of just getting a degree, finding a job and sitting still. My plan was always to start my own media company no matter how small time it turns out to be. This week I came step closer to that dream. I have a new plan one that I think will actually work out for me. All of this is in addition to the regular job I intended to get. Right now I am just sort of bouncing back from a slow period in my life so things are about to speed back up.

The company.

I am creating a new company most likely a sole proprietorship, maybe a limited corporation depending on how things go. Under this new banner I will create a new logo and name for my media projects and file for a proper trademark to make things more legit than previous attempts. I studied some mass media subjects while at school and I am taking lots of business related classes now so I am more prepared to do things the right way than I ever have been before.

The company will be mostly virtual I might look for a small space to rent where I can set up a small studio but for now that is optional the first thing I need to do is get the website up and running. The new website will be different than anything I have done before. I took a professional web design class in school and I am taking some other design and art related classes so my web making skills are much improved from before.

The focus will be the media of course. Divided into categories. First up is a new blog, this one here will still keep going on the side but the new blog will be dedicated to my company. I am creating several new screen names and writing persona’s for this venture. Each entry will be divided into categories and sorted into their proper place making it easier to find what is relevant. The blog will not be entirely random but it will be broad focused.

I am returning to pod casting. I finally have proper professional grade studio quality recording equipment and over a decade of experience to draw on. I am doing this right. The podcast will be divided into different topics and themes. I have three already in mind, the first up is a video game/technology centered discussion. The other two I am still developing, there might be a return of the rat in there some where, a new politically themed show tentatively called “The Radical Republican.”

I am also creating a new web comic that I will be writing, drawing and publishing myself on the site. This is a side venture on the scale I originally envision for Bim-Dizzle, a project that never go off the ground due to being too complicated. I have scaled back on what I intend to do, to something more manageable.

Short stories, themes, essay, I will publish different written works to the site as well. These will be short stories that I wrote or write in my spare time. I have a few saved up that once I edit them I will start releasing as time permits. I will also have an area for fanfics and other stuff.

Short films, movies, music videos, and more. I have different video projects in mind, there are two stop-motion short films I am working on, one live-action short that will feature some primitive special effects, and a couple of other mini-shows that I will try to get set up as I have time. Music videos are also a new part of this venture. I have three full length albums worth of music that I created over the years, and a brand new one that I am in the process of developing now.

Not all of these warrant music videos but I will make some for the ones that are more important to me or those that justify the effort. I already have some ideas in mind and none of this will happen over night. I will make DVD’s available of all video projects as they accumulate. I will be hosting my videos someplace outside of Youtube so don’t expect that same Youtube vibe or experience as before. I am not sure how I will handle web hosting but I am certain Youtube will NOT be in the picture.

I have scrapped the idea of trying to do a full comic book instead I will try to do a web based mini comic that will be published sporadically.

The books are dead. I tried several times to write a novel, I got pretty far this last attempt but the story got away from me and then I got distracted by life events and suddenly forgot where I was going and lost all interest. Instead I will break these things down into short stories, or maybe serials if that is easier, and publish them to the website.

The Adventurers lives on, Candy can just deal with it. I always pictured it as a more serialized story than a massive novel anyways so this works out better for me. Also I am taking it back to its roots, I created it with a specific vision in mind, I can’t let that vision be warped into something unrecognizable. The characters are too important to me to let them die so I have a new plan that will launch with this new venture.

Other than that I will keep things lose. I have a plan and this is more organized than ever before so I intend to stick with it. I don’t have an end game in mind, I will work till I die, so I will write until I die. The goal is to be as creative as possible. I hope to make money sure, but not at the expense of creative freedom. That is all for now, more details to come latter as things get finalized. The pod cast will begin first so keep an eye out for that. Stay Cool.

Cry for Dawn

Between work, school, and just trying to figure out where I am in my life, I still have too much time to sit around and think about things. I know I could be doing something productive with my life but to be honest I have had enough of that, trying new things and all that. Right now I just want to settle into a steady job and focus on doing my school on the side. In between work and school I will try to continue to work on various side projects but I am planning on slowing things down for a while.

Right now the project I am working on though is just trying to keep this blog going before I let it fall apart like all previous blogs. Usually what happens is I lose my focus or I try to find too many topics and then I get distracted. Remember a couple of years ago when all my blogs were talking about Cry for Dawn, nobody even knew who or what Cry For Dawn was and yet I kept trying to get people into the discussion. It wasn’t like I really expected people to understand what Cry For Dawn meant to me or why it was so important or how I even got onto that topic in the first place.

Not to mention that I was mostly just trying to get people interested or at least curious about the Dawn character, not so much the Dawn fictional universe. Actually I was really getting into horror comics at that time and I had previously discovered Dawn back in the 90’s so it was one of those things I always kind of wanted to go back to.

Every once in a while I do like to go back to something that I might have forgotten about or lost interest in or just moves past. Sometimes I like to leave things in the past but for some reason I want to bring up Cry For Dawn today. It sort of just crept into my head for some unknown reason while I was reading another Nintendo is doomed article on the web.

I get so sick of those because let’s face it nobody can predict the future. But there was this one website I frequent who had one topic digress into posting well internet memes that were of the horrible things in life, death, suicide, murder, fears, all those types of things and it reminded me of why I was drawn to Dawn in the first place.

I will not write a biography of the Dawn character as anyone reading this has access to Google and can look her up themselves. I wasn’t exactly saddened that the series has been so short over the years, Dawn has never really had much mainstream attention, which is something I kind of relate to in a way, my favorite movies all tend to be less than mainstream anyways, Star Wars aside of course but even that is something of a different topic. So why do I bring this up again? Well mainly because I have it on my mind and I wanted to just talk about it. Not that I am all that into Dawn, it was a comic like so many others that I discovered and then forgot about as life moved on.

I do start a new job today and as a part of that I am going to be looking for things to get me through the shift so I just wanted to put some of my thoughts down as a way to keep my head clear. If you are interested in learning more about the Dawn character Google Cry for Dawn or Dawn Comics she is pretty easy so spot. Stay Cool.

The Journey so far

When I sat out to return to college and seek a degree it was one of those moves made out of desperation more than a seriously long hard look at where I was going. Before I ended up returning to college I was still running around trying to figure out what I was doing with my life and what I should be doing with my life. The problem is I was trying to do too much and not focusing on the things that were really important to me. I left Nevada partly because the economy was on the decline, the part time job I had only gave me usually 16 hours a week, and the signs were there that things were not getting better at least for where I was at. Some of my family had returned to Nebraska to start over and in the process I ended up where they were thinking I too would start over.

It isn’t so much that once I got here I had no idea what to do is that once I got here there just wasn’t much to do. We moved to a very rural area of the state were lets just say the jobs were beyond scarce and we were forced to try to start up our own businesses each of us. None of us were particularly successful and only one of my sisters husbands was able to land a full time job the rest of us were doing our internet stuff or trying to get some thing going out of nothing. I was working off what I had at the time, I had previously invested a lot of money into video production and editing equipment as part of a website I started with some friends as well as an extension of my music since I wanted to do some music videos also.

I had created a Youtube channel and was starting to really enjoy making video projects. For this reason and because I had some experience in computer repair and in web design I started a business doing those things for people, PC repair, making web sites, offering to convert old video tapes to digital files and put them onto DVD, things of that sort. It was a little rough going but I did manage to get a few decent paying jobs and was able to limp along for a brief period, before the money ran out and the market well dried up since there were just not that much demand for what I was offering.

I became a member of the local Chamber of Commerce and began attending development meetings and along the way I was hired to do a marketing video for the Chamber focusing on the local businesses and attractions that they would post online to their website, Face Book, Youtube, and show at the movie theater before the shows. Since they were a historic theater and were a non profit that showed movies for much less than others, they had an untapped market of people coming to town to see cheap films they could show case their video to and show off all the other attractions the town had to offer. Truth is the project eventually fell a part due to a lack of cooperation with the local business owners, and a lot of miscommunication on every end, so the project was scrapped and I was left again with nothing to do to make me any money.

This was shortly after the government changed the rules on how to apply for and qualify for student loans and since I had been rejected in the past for one stupid thing or another, I was reluctant to even bother signing up. Turns out it was a good idea as not only was I approved but I did get accepted into the school as a non-traditional student and from there I was in. This was great because it meant I had four years of basically free money to live off and a safe environment to plan my life.

I started out right away in the Broadcasting Major because well that was where I was at during that point in my life. I will skip over the part where I went through major changes during school and get right to the end. My last semester, which was my junior year meaning I had completed three years already and was only a year away from finishing up, due to a serious of events I won’t get into I was suspended from the school and kicked out of my apartment.

Up to that point I had kept my area of studies in the same general focus, mass communication, mass media. I moved around from Broadcasting to Content Development, Multimedia, Theater, Journalism, Advertising and Public Relations, Computer Science, and even changing to English Major at once point. The theme was the say, I wanted to do something in the mass media field mostly video production or maybe writing, but I was just finalizing my plans. A year ago I made a major change that threw everything into a big mess which ended up leading to my end at the University.

Not wanting to give all that up again out of pure desperation I immediately transferred for the next semester into the local community college and began taking classes right away in the area I wanted to be in, except I ran into problems, they wanted me to relocate to a town thirty miles away, then denied me the student loans I was going to need to move and live on, and to top it off I was not able to get a job to supplement my lack of income. So I made a quick change to the plan, I moved my major out of Mass media and into Business Administration, something I had been struggling with for a long time at the University. Why do this?

Well partly because I could do business classes online, which is the main reason, but also because I had previously completed an online diploma in business management a few years before so I already had the basic knowledge and being three years into a Bachelors meant transferring to an Associates all my general studies work was already completed and it put me a little closer to graduating. Still I felt like this was not the path I started out on and so I went into a panic and began doing what I always do, making quick changes without doing much thinking, I applied for a full time job at this factory that paid pretty good and decided I would just give up on school and go into that line of work, this proved to be a mistake I couldn’t shake off my conscience so I ended up finding some relief when they offered me a different job for slightly less money but better hours so I could continue to work on school.

Needless to say I was still facing other things that were getting in the way of me being able to enjoy or at least accept where I was at and so I went into a real panic, I sold all my belongings, packed up my van and took off for LA. As moms tend to do mine interfered and talked me into stopping off with her brother in Arizona. See the thing was he was just too close to LA for me to not run over and at least check it out so I did just that, and on the way as my money was running out and I was realizing the gravity of the situation I got a phone call from the company I was trying to get on and they offered my a full time position that would pay enough to live and go to school and gave me weekends off so I could still do my studies and things started to look like maybe they would work out after all. With just enough money to get me home I turned the van around and headed back, leaving California behind and that silly dream that somehow I was going to make it out there in the big city. Did I say big city I mean mega city and well let’s just leave it at that, that place was not for me.

Still looking back the reason I went into such a major panic was I didn’t want to throw away the last three years of my life and go back to what I was doing with no education no experience and skills that without education and experience weren’t worth much, I was doomed to return to bouncing around from one meaningless job to another. Well After taking a nice vacation/road trip I was able to clear my head and refocus on what is important to me. I am most likely not going to be truly happy with this job, there is no doubt about that. But it is the kind of job unlike most previous jobs that I can see my self sticking with at least for the time being.

My intention is to just do this for now, finish up my school, and see where I go from there. I don’t want to make plans too far into the future because one thing I have learned is plans change, they hardly ever go the way you expect them to anyways so it is best to stick with the short term and not worry about the future. So here I am now back on track but a little slightly off from where I was. At least I didn’t throw it all away and I have been keeping up with my school work, the best part of taking online classes is you can do them from any internet connection so far that has been very helpful for me. I am considering what my options are and as I look at the world, the job postings, and attending job fairs, I think that once I complete this degree I will be in a better position to at least look for better jobs than those I have been stuck doing in the past. It isn’t even so much about finding a job I will love as it is finding a job I won’t hate. Now that I at least have one of those, even if it is temporary, it is better than doing what I was doing before. I usually tend to remain optimistic in all things but lately it has been even harder than usual to do so. I think that with my head cleared and my new plans being something I can actually look forward to I am in a better place, even if very little has actually changed. Sometimes you just have to know what you are doing is the right thing for you and right now I can say that at least I am right where I should be right now. Stay Cool.